Not If I See You First

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In the tradition of Gayle Forman and John Green comes this extraordinary YA debut about a blind teen girl navigating life and love in high school.



Parker Grant doesn't need 20/20 vision to see right through you. That's why she created the Rules: Don't treat her any differently just because she's blind, and never take advantage. There will be no second chances. Just ask Scott Kilpatrick, the boy who broke her heart.



When Scott suddenly reappears in her life after being gone for years, Parker knows there's only one way to react--shun him so hard it hurts. She has enough on her mind already, like trying out for the track team (that's right, her eyes don't work but her legs still do), doling out tough-love advice to her painfully naive classmates, and giving herself gold stars for every day she hasn't cried since her dad's death three months ago. But avoiding her past quickly proves impossible, and the more Parker learns about what really happened--both with Scott, and her dad--the more she starts to question if things are always as they seem. Maybe, just maybe, some Rules are meant to be broken.



Debut author Eric Lindstrom's Not If I See You First combines a fiercely engaging voice with true heart.

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Publishers Weekly Review

An old writing adage suggests that plot boils down to getting a character up a tree and then throwing rocks at him. In Lindstrom's debut, the tree is high, and the rocks are jagged. Parker Grant lost her sight and her mother in a car crash; as the book opens, she's coping with her father's sudden death. A high school junior, Parker gets around well on her own (so much so that she runs at a nearby field in secret) and has some strict rules to keep her life manageable. Some are reasonable (warn her before touching her, don't assume blind means stupid), some less so (no crying, no second chances). That last rule, inspired by the middle-school boyfriend who broke her heart, is tested when he reappears. The byplay between Parker and her friends is believable, and in creating a heroine whose drive for independence brings both risks and rewards, Lindstrom adds a note of complexity to his gripping depiction of how Parker learns to trust and forgive. Ages 15-up. Agent: Jennifer Weltz, Jean V. Naggar Literary Agency. (Dec.) © Copyright PWxyz, LLC. All rights reserved.

Booklist Review

Parker has rules: Don't talk extra loud to me. I'm not deaf; Don't touch me without asking or warning me. I can't see it coming. That's for starters. Blinded in an accident at a young age, that also took her mother's life, the acerbic teen suffers another tragedy in high school with the sudden death of her beloved father. Could life go any more offtrack? Yes, in fact, because a former boyfriend has just transferred to her school, introducing another layer of emotional complexity. While Lindstrom's debut understandably contains plenty of melancholy, angst, and self-doubt, it also possesses crackling wit, intense teen drama, and a lively pace that pulls readers in, as do the everyday details of Parker's world: spoken-word texts, clever methods of finding her way, and a guide runner who helps Parker when she considers joining the school track team. This unique coming-of-age tale is off and running from the start.--O'Malley, Anne Copyright 2015 Booklist

Horn Book Review

Blind since being injured in a car accident when she was seven, high school junior Parker Grant has created a set of rules to help sighted people interact with her. Such as: Rule #11. Dont be weird. Seriously, other than having my eyes closed all the time, Im just like you only smarter. Now that another high school has merged with hers, theres a new group of students who need to learn The Rules; unfortunately, Parker didnt expect one of them to be Scott, her ex-boyfriend and unforgivable breaker of Rule #1 (Dont deceive me. Ever. Especially using my blindness. Especially in public). Parker juggles her complicated feelings for Scott while dating a new guy, feeling distanced from her best friend, and trying out for the track teamall, of course, experiences teens who can see might face as well. In fact, the strength of this debut novel is that Parkers blindness isnt her defining characteristic. Parker instead presents her challenges matter-of-factly, with a relentless need for independence and a killer sense of humor, which falters only occasionally, as when, in the storys most wrenching moments, she grieves for her recently deceased father. This is a nuanced, compassionate portrait of what its like to live with a disability and of a girl whos much more than her limitations. rachel l. smith (c) Copyright 2015. The Horn Book, Inc., a wholly owned subsidiary of Media Source, Inc. No redistribution permitted.

Kirkus Book Review

"Rule #1: Don't deceive me. Ever.Rule #INFINITY: There are NO second chances." Parker Grant doesn't trust surprisesher blindness intensifies them too much. After she finds her father dead of a drug overdose, she's further disoriented when her overprotective aunt and aloof cousin move in and junior year starts. Disorientation becomes dizziness when she meets Jason, who knows "how to talk to a blind girl," and it escalates to panic when she encounters Scott, the ex-boyfriend who betrayed her in eighth grade. She finds stability in running, but her outward equilibrium is maintained only by the gold stars she awards herself for not crying. Fortunately, she has her best friend, Sarah, and a no-nonsense, dark-humored outlook that she parlays into tough-love peer counseling because she can't see people flinch. But with so many changes and memories, is it enough? Lindstrom's immersive portrayal of the dimension Parker's blindness adds to both atypical and everyday angst imbues his protagonist with mature complexity. Like the Army vest covered in slogans or the colorful blindfolds she wears like a "Rorschach test," Parker's snarky bravado is not only for armor, but for inputa way to gauge other people's capacity for honesty, critical for navigating her world. Parker herself does not escape analysis (or sympathy), ultimately confronting her problems through what others reveal. An unflinching exploration of trust, friendship, and grief. (Fiction. 14 up) Copyright Kirkus Reviews, used with permission.